There is so much significance that needs to be placed on being with someone who can either instinctively meet your needs, or who places importance on the things you need even if they aren't needs for themselves.
Rather than believing that our core is horrible and we must cover it up with Godly goodness taken from outside of ourselves, I believe that our core is actually pure and sweet and infinitely divine, and we must look inward to wash off the layers of worldly grime in order to restore ourselves to our true glory.
If I'm going to be completely honest, I feel like I've been stripped down to the brass tacks of who I am as a person, and I am NOT liking the feeling of having to start over from scratch. I mean, I'm 30 years old, for god's sake!
Today, in my 6th year of being a recipient of the nations' gratitude on this lovely day, I am sipping a glass of wine and reflecting on my own list of teachers who have shone their light on my little life and given me some guideposts on how I should strive to be the best teacher I can be.
I have talked with several men who bemoan their own breakups, wondering how they, the "good guy" could have been dumped so heartlessly. Are they really a "good guy?" Or are they just giving themselves the title so they can fuel their victim fire?
Since I highly respect Jada Pinkett Smith based on her conversations and the energy she exudes during her show, I tuned in to see how she would handle this controversy. She did not disappoint; I felt that she discussed the matter with Jordyn in a manner that was both sensitive and firm.
I have yet to figure out a way to make myself WANT to wash off the grimy thoughts that cling like leeches to the recesses of my mind when they manifest, and usually just have to wait until they have suckled their fill of my spirit and drop off on their own, sated...until the next time.
From ages 19 to 23, I was married to a drug addict. Add in the year of dating before the whirlwind wedding, and I spent 5 years of my life with this man. This feels extremely weird to write because I have pretty much blocked out that part of my life, and most of the time it feels like I wasted a big part of my early 20's. However, it taught me a LOT, and gave me my best friend (his sister), so it was definitely not all a loss.
Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about God and spirituality in general, trying to really pinpoint what I truly believe. This musing on the higher positive power naturally lends itself to contemplation of the darker forces that so often seem to be at work in today's world, and I am starting to lean... Continue Reading →